I've discovered that I feel so much better when I'm driving. I mean, when I am angry. Under normal circumstances, people would go kickboxing, swimming, etc. But for me, it's a bit different. My whole life, I've always controlled something around me. That's why I've been happy when I was younger. Now, it's different. Since the recent incident, I've lost a big part of me which included my responsibilities, priorities and independence. I don't even have control over myself. Therefore, I've learnt that when I am driving around and listening to music, I can calm myself down from everything. It's funny. It's dangerous I know but that's the only way that I've discovered for now, I am sure I will discover other ways later.
-dkm
